I haven’t posted here since my initial onset of MAV about 2 years ago. The first 6 months were terrible but I was put in Amitriptyline and I improved so much. In fact, for the past year and a half, besides a few setbacks, I’ve felt like myself again. I am only on 10 mg of the ami and have even considered trying to get off of it this fall but a weird thing has happened. For the past few days my dizziness has increased, which is fine. I’ve had this happen before. The barometric pressure has dropped and I think this is a trigger for me. The thing that is really getting to me is anxiety…out of nowhere. I had this bad at the onset and it went away but not for months.
About 2 nights ago I couldn’t get to sleep. I finally fell asleep and was a little tired in the morning but was ok. The the night before last, I was up until 1am with fluttering sensations in my stomach, prickly sensations and rapid heartbeat…typical anxiety attack. I did manage to fall asleep but only for about 3 hours. Last night was the worst. I dreaded going to sleep because I knew it was going to keep me up. I’ve now gotten to the point that my body will not physical let me fall asleep. I have constant butterflies in my stomach and as soon as I try to relax, my body jolts me awake, I feel nauseous and very anxious and weak. I know this is all attributed to anxiety. With my initial onset, it happened in the night and I had issues with sleeping. I actually had a full blown panic attack which I’d never experienced before. I think part of me is worried I’m going back to that place and I cannot get myself out of it. My kids just finished school so summer is starting, we are getting ready to leave for vacation and I’m terrified I’m going to be anxious, nauseated and exhausted the whole time. I’ve been really looking forward to this trip and I hate feeling this way. How can you control anxiety when I know it’s the anticipation of the anxiety that’s causing this? I took a quarter tablet of clonazapan that I had from before and I was able to sleep…but only with that and I don’t want to rely on that. It allowed me about 4 hours of sleep but upon awakening, the stomach flutters, shaky feeling and rapid heartbeat are there. I should probably be posting on an anxiety board but the whole reason this started was due to my MAV, which actually isn’t too bad right now. Just wondering if anyone has any advice on how to get out of this loop. I’ve been exercising regularly and that has not helped. Thanks for listening.