Ok guys, I Need some of you guys to talk some sense into me. My family is being very supportive towards me which has lead to me improving from when I first got his with MAV. But they still believe more of my symptoms are due to anxiety and less from MAV which sucks.
Basically I have been on the cymbalta since May-June of this year. I bumped up to 90mg of cymbalta early August and this had me hovering between 70% and 75%. However in the last couple of days my dizziness are back to what it was on 60mg of cymbalta during June and July. I would blame that on less sleep as my new born baby is giving us a tough time at night. So what I am saying is that before getting on the cymbalta I used to wake up every day with a very heavy head, completely disoriented and it would remain this way throughout the whole day until I slept and of course the anxiety was off the charts. Then I went on the cymbalta 30mg for a week and then bumped up to 60mg and remained on this dose between June and July. Noticed that my head pressure/heavy head sensation reduced but the rocking on a boat feeling remained the same. Anxiety had also improved. Then I bumped up to 90mg of Cymbalta during August and Sept and felt great i.e. anxiety almost completely gone and heavy head sensation almost gone and mild rocking on boat sensation remained not counting this week which has been bad due to lack of sleep.
I am however internally very depressed with the thought that I actually have to be on “medicine” to keep my anxiety under control. The feeling of anxiety is real and is probably due to my brain misfiring neurons or whatever theory out there exists, but it still makes me sad that me being a 31 year old bloke has to be on a “MEDICINE” to make myself “normal” and not be afraid to deal with the world (anxiety). All doctors that I have spoken to tell me that anti depressants are safe and temporary and r used until u start to feel better again which could take maybe 6 months, 1 year, maybe 2 or 3 and then you can wean off them. The fact that there are medicines out there that help both the anxiety and dizzies is great. But my problem is that I can’t help thinking that i have to be on a medicine for the rest of my life to survive and these medicines r altering chemicals in my brain. The FDA for all anti depressants say they “believe” these anti depressants work on serotonin, norepinephrine, dopamine etc. Note, they use the word “believe” meaning they are not guaranteeing it. Who know these drugs can be leading to our early deaths etc? I may be thinking too far down the line now because apart from the cymbalta, most other anti depressants have been tried and tested for ages with no negatives impacts except for the side effects when u wean off them. But these drugs r all altering our brain chemistry which scares the shit outta me.