Thanks guys, great support I appreciate it. I would love to be a photographer as I have been told some of the pictures I take on my phone of sunsets and the like are great but with no experience and just "good" pictures on a phone I doubt that would get me very far, especially as I am close to 50.
Fascinating conversation this week with an NHS representative at a Job Fayre I was instructed to attend by the Job Centre. Very nice she was and extremely sympathetic to my trials and tribulations with Vertigo and the DWP, and although she is going to keep me in the loop with any potential roles for me within their admin sector she mentioned something that I hadn't really thought of before. She says basically the biggest difficulty I would have as someone with a fluctuating condition like Vertigo is this. Say you are sick Monday, attend work Tuesday, sick Wednesday, attend Thursday, sick Friday. Ok that's an extreme example but she explained that this would not be considered one period of sick absence but three within a certain time period. Not sure what the legal period is but it's not very long. Three sick periods within that time brings in a disciplinary warning through no fault of my own so therefore four or five periods of sickness due to my vertigo (even if they are one day each) could result in me being sacked for a lack of attendance,. She says that the added problem is that this goes on your CV and of course the next job you go for you need a reference, which is your last employer. Why does everyone seem to realise that a fluctuating condition is as disabling as a permanent one except the DWP, Job Centre and Tribunal Service?!!!!!
Had some good news this week though although I guess "good" with a tinge of frustration. On top of everything else I have been under the doctor (so to speak) for three years regarding possible sleep apnea. As well as the vertigo I have insomnia and fatigue. I have had several tests and half came back with a mild apnea and half clear. After waiting months since my last check I have been told over the phone that I DO NOT have sleep apnea. So whilst absolutely delighted that I won't have to try and sleep with a CPAP machine which is basically a small octopus on your face I now am still not sure what causes my insomnia and tiredness.
Maybe it's everything that's been going on since 2012 with constant vertigo, tinnitus and insomnia and constant worry and anxiety of work and finances. Maybe I'll try a more psychological therapy and see if that helps my woes!! I just wish I could put my body in reset to maybe a few years back. Anyone got a spare De Lorean so I can take myself back to 1985?!?!